Today is my 1st day at work. It was a little bit intimidating but it was fun. I expected someone will train me but I guess I have to ask them first and then they will teach me on what to do and how to do it. There is one time when I finish doing my stuff, I just stand on the side and watch some of the crew members doing their job. They are so busy, and there are so many of them. I really don't have any idea on what to do next. But I step in and ask one of them on how I can help and what else I can do. They responded very well and one of them ask me a favor if I could help her. Sure yes. They are nice and they are not minorities. lol. I think I'm the only minority there. haha. My job is a sandwich maker at Jimmy Johns. They make gourmet sandwiches and it is a very healthy sandwich. Its not your typical Mcdonald or Burger king make-you-obese fast food. lol. My schedule is good and the pay is not bad at all. When I say "not bad" it doesn't mean it's good. lol. But I have to work, not only to make money but I need to have a job experience because I never have any job experience before except that one month waitressing, which doesn't really count. So my goal is to stick with this job for a long time. I'm not gonna promise or anything that I won't quit here, but I will really give all my best to learn and have experience. That's all I need. This is my second chance so I'm not gonna waste this opportunity.
Everything happened for a reason
June has been a cruel month for me. I lost the things that is very important to me. I don't blame anyone of all the terrible things that happened. I guess it is me who is doing and creating my destiny. The decisions I made really affects everything- from my job, to myself. It is hard to lose the job that you learned to love and the hardest is when you lose confident in yourself. I tried not to say anything about what I really feel because I don't want other people to know and I'd rather keep it to myself and try to believe that everything is okay. But the denial stage is over. I have to admit that it's been very tough and life isn't always fun. Seriously.
But life must go on. I have to accept first what happened and then focused on positive things. How I wish it is an easy thing to do. I resent a lot, to the point I end up hating some people. I prison myself into darkness and I'm losing hope to all my dreams. But even resenting can make you tired. So I stand up and said to myself that I will never make any stupid decisions without analyzing first the situation and I should be contented on the things I have.
So July came and this month welcome me with joy. I have a new job and by the end of this month, I know I can lawfully drive like anyone else. This is my second chance and I will do my best not to waste it. June may be a crucial month for me, but it taught me a lot. I think that's what its all about. Everything happened for a reason.
chef in the making
i created another blog site again (for myself sake). it actually entertains me and i am happy. so i hope you can visit my other blog site, Chef in the making. Thanks!
im still alive
its been a rough week for me...
but i know i can handle this.
think positive. dream big.
healed
i am not in the mood to do anything today. i am here in this four-wall boring bedroom doing nothing but to watch kapamilya shows and nap. i know its a boring hell doing things like this for a whole week. but its also kinda helpful because this is the only week i could relax. after this, everything will be back to normal-- the never ending stress. but even though working is absolutely tiring, i still miss it. of course i want to make money, but beyond that, i want to learn new challenging stuff.
these past few weeks was not really that amazing. though sometimes we go outside to refresh ourselves and well, being "laid back". but i can't hide or escape the things that keeps bothering me. i know that my last blog post sounds really enraged. but things changed as the day goes by. what really happened was they fired me, which i am grateful of. i don't want to convince myself that i like my job because deep inside i am shouting in protest. though "firing" sounds really bad, me and my former boss didn't end in bad relation. we're cool about it. actually they still pay me, and this time, they pay me right. i will just forget what happened to my bike. no further comment.
Horrible Thursday
hi bloggers
i haven't been here since my last blog. and i am really sorry for not posting anything. you might think i am busy, but im not. i have two jobs and still im not busy. i work at day time and i have all the remaining 7 hours before my husband leaves from work. actually i am jobless for two weeks from my "real" job. my employer (Mr. Lee) took a vacation going to Korea for two weeks, and i awkwardly miss my ever dearly waitressing job. as far as i hate to admit this, i don't like my job in hotel. i don't have any time to my husband, and im always exhausted. plus i don't make that much money since i work there. actually i make more money in waitressing than housekeeping. heres the thing, i made 100 bucks just for tips in two days at House of Lee whereas i made 82 bucks in the hotel for five days! i don't know why for some reason they only paid me 82 and the hours that they put on my check is only 12 hours. F*cking A! to think i work more than 30 hours there and they just paid me 82? what the hell is that?!
(the horrible story continues...)
not just that. yesterday was terrible. i went there, thursday, to work because its my working day until sunday. did you know what my boss said after seeing me? she said "why are you here?" she seems shocked when she saw me. and i was like "why wouldn't i?" i am really confused why she ask me that kind of question. and she said "did you read your schedule?" and i said "yeah, my day offs are monday to wednesday, right? thats why im here because its thursday." she said "no, thats not your schedule". i looked at my schedule and they print another schedule again, in short they changed it. i asked her if they changed the schedule and she said NOOOOO... what the f*ck?! i am pretty sure i read my schedule correctly. what the f*ck is wrong with you people! she left me with big f*cking confusion in my head! i am so pissed off. i was thinking maybe i should quit here, yeah i should if Mr. Lee comes back and after i get my pay check. and i just decided rightnow, at this moment that I WILL QUIT THERE. so anyway, she gave me these list of rooms where im going to work and i got 16 rooms and i should clean each room for 30 minutes. Holy shit! yeah, 30 minutes. i almost walked out and not gonna come back. but i didn't, which until now, i wish i did. so yeah i was working there for 8 hours cleaning shits. lol. im just glad because my husband went there at my break to give me some water and a doublecheese burger (my favorite). i am so hungry and exhausted. after that, i go back to my work and blah blah blah. so when i am ready to leave, i went outside and much to my disbelief, my bike was not there! what the f*ck?! where is my bike?! who the hell gets it?! i was almost into tears when i found out that someone stole my bike. technically its not my bike, but my sister-in-law's. i just borrowed it from her and now its gone...
just this morning i called my boss that i will not come to work today. she sounds upset or maybe dissapointed to me because i didn't tell her earlier that i will not come and what happened to my bike. i understand her situation because its hard to find someone who will replace me knowing that some housekeepers also have day off this day. after all the terrible things that happened, i still feel bad about myself because i didn't go to work. i feel like i don't have work ethics. just because my bike was gone, doesn't mean i should ask for a leave. that's not really acceptable. and i'd rather hear from her "you're fired!" than me just quit without telling them :(
yesterday was the nicest day i've ever had! *sarcastic*
First day: Training
so today is my first day at work and also my first day of training. as much as i want to learn and get everything they taught me, i am pretty sure i didn't remember all of it. what can i say beside the fact that it is a hard labor tiring job? hmmmm...good for workout? LOL :) seriously, it is not as bad as what i thought. but i just can't let the word 'tired' let pass of my judgment. i am exhausted but smiley knowing that i have a good job that will occupy my time and also, as what everyone wants, to make more bucks.
my work place is very near to my house and as usual, i bike going home. im just crossing my finger not to rain or else...im gonna stay there and wait for someone to pick me up (poor me). that's why even the weather is good, and i have all the reasons to bike, i still prefer to drive because it is a necessity.
the hotel that i am working is not a five-star hilton-marriott type. but it is not a cheap hotel either. but it is cheaper though than going to five star hotels. you see, Choice Hotels International, is a very huge corporation here in the United States which holds different brand of hotels including the hotel where i am working. they have hotels around the world including, Australia, Canada, France, Ireland, Germany and many more. i am really thankful and at the same time proud that i am working here. my employer and everyone there are nice and friendly. it is a very good place to work and learn.
